Friday, July 23, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:04 PM

i can feel that i'm walking on the edge of a cliff, but i can never see what it is there under, over the edge. it might be rocks, a big bed of jelly-0, the sea, huge inflated airbed, or nothing.............. i dont know what it is because i cant see it, i cant feel it.

can't move away from it, something/someone is holding me there preventing me from falling over, but cant pull me away to safety. i can't see who/what that is holding me, can't trust that he/she/it will not be the thing to push me over.

Thursday, July 22, 2010
Last blogged @ 4:24 PM

i wish, for a limbo.

in a world of my own reality.

Saturday, July 17, 2010
Last blogged @ 2:49 AM

i dont like to use my brain.

a lecturer once told me that we should always be working our brain. sleeping is not for your brain to rest, but for your body to recover itself. we must always always think think and think.

so guilty when i heard it, because im blanking most of the time, even DURING lectures when that few hours should be spend concentrating on what the lecturer is saying and UNDERSTANDING it.

you know the fun part of studying is when i understand the theory, or understand how this formulae comes about, or understand any concepts that by understanding, i can skip the memorising for exams. but recently i realise my brain gets lazier and lazier and skip alot of understanding and resort to memorising.

"having the ability to buy, but choosing not to"
shall keep this in mind and try to meditate the materialistic side of me away.

life wont be life if it ain't full of shit, and times like this: STUCK in a never ending whirlpool of negative self-worthiness.

Friday, July 16, 2010
Last blogged @ 12:48 AM

"who say i not a sociable person"

HAHAHAHAHAHAZ. opps! =p
and i now know he does read my blog. on rare occasions. =p =p =p

for you my piggy dear dear:

3years of laughter, tears, frustration, craziness, tolerance from you.
you're awesome and i love you!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:48 PM

found a sport that i really love! S-W-I-M-M-I-N-G! =)

went with sis on mon evening, and swam for a good 45mins! SWAM, not playing in the water! and it doesnt feel like i'm exercising at all, and the 45mins was not painful to pass, unlike the hated running which makes 5min seems like 5hrs.

finally started on the one thing that i wanna do, and its time to get consistent! =) =)
my motivation IS that horrendous pile that stacks higher and higher with each passing week!

anyone feels like swimming? come clementi and find me to swim tog k! =)

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its easy to be happier, if you don't take things too seriously. by that i dont mean not being responsible for the things you are suppose to be responsible for. but stop being so hard on myself to try to be what i think ppl want me to be. its miserable to try to change, and not be happy at all.

and the way of escape is so not good for the pocket.

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on a lighter note, my hamster (affectionately called sweetie pie) escaped from her cage. if you have seen before, its that fish tank cage of hers, making no bars or leverage for her to climb to the top. its a mystery as to how she managed to escape. and to the storeroom at the lower living room. (*note, her cage was at the upper living room and to get down she must jump down 4 steps)

because of that small furball, the whole family woke up at 7am! she was spotted (luckily) by my grandma and seriously at the last place anyone whould have thought of searching if she was discovered missing.

the poor thing was so firghtened (either by the surroundings or us for catching it back)that her eyes was almost popping out and she was on super high alert that anything that touches her will be subjected to an attack.

even though she doesnt let me carry her on my palms, allow me to pet her only when she is distracted by food, still love that small black furry hamster of mine and it scares me to think of her doing a prison break again. =(

Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:11 PM