"I need, and MUST grow up, but I don't know how."

I used to think I'm very good at blocking away the big S, now it seems like it had never entered my life before. I'm trying all my best to face it but I really have no idea how. So it is growing into a godzilla S and it's friend, D, seems to be coming to visit.

Facing S, blocking D. Facing S, blocking D. Facing S, blocking D.

No, don't anyone dare to tell me that I don't have to worry about anything at this moment because I have my parents. because THAT FACT itself is stressing me up like germs multiplying.

the arms that i find relieve in, will become a S one day.

I don't want to wake up tomorrow, or in fact, any other days.