Monday, August 17, 2009
Last blogged @ 4:45 PM

if you haven already know, i got 'fired' from my tuition job.

okay they said that i was too nice to the kids. too nice? seriously ii cant figure out what does that mean. nice because im not screaming at their kids? or nice because im not giving them alot of hw? im thinking they are too nice to say that i suck?

im jobless again so no more income. *sigh*

its so hard to save money. spending more than necessary, and so many more birthdays and each bdae can easily make me cough up AT LEAST 50bucks. thats my one week allowance. im trying to cut down on my spendings by not going out. I'll admit that I'm not exactly broke-broke. There's still money in the bank, but I hate myself every single time i have to dig into it to spend on entertainment. I'm trying to survive solely on my allowance, ONLY on my allowance. pls understand if i reject any dinner dates yup?

and i got back my results, passed 3 out of 4. the one i failed is the audit paper. no surprise there cause i expected it. i even expected to fail one of the other paper but surprisingly ii passed. but im not happy at all. not not not at all because the marks are horrendous. 60, 58, 59. BLEARGHHHHHHHHHHHH! and one of it is for business law. damn it!

self studying is a nightmare for someone like me who lacks absolute discipline.

why must we study so hard getting a piece of paper without knowing how successful you'll be in your career. If you're good, say hello to a high salary but goodbye to your social life. If you're lousy, getting the low range of salary for the rest of your career and strangle to build a family with growing general inflation outrunning your growth in salary. What is the point in slogging your whole life?

what is the meaning of life?

until i figure that out, im not going to have children in future, not going to bring a life into this planet, only to have them face the harsh reality of life.

im being bitter. there are the ppl in my life which makes me very happy everyday. the point is, I just want to play still!

and, im a bad person. truly.